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Sunday, May 28, 2006

chinese Os tmr!! i better start reading the notes.
and ppl, i think i wont be updating this blog that often now. probably once a mth. bye bye.

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4:04 PM

Thursday, May 18, 2006

failure is not an event, but a judgement on an event.

most of the results for prelim 1 are back, except the english language, for which the marks are yet to be finalised.

pure history--A1
combined humanities(ss, elec geog)-- A2
a maths--A2
chinese--A2
chemistry--C6
e maths--D7
physics-- a predestined F9. haha.

bad result is the compelling force to drive me on, i'll set out with crusading zeal to accomplish a daunting task: A1 for emaths the next time round, and to improve my chem.

im not in the best state to blog, so i'll sign off with this short entry.

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10:08 PM

Saturday, May 13, 2006

show some love, take the initiatory step.

being emotionally stabbed by ur loved ones, is often a nerve wrecking, heart wrenching, mind cracking experience. this entry aint for the masses, but solely for two friends.

yes, i call u friends for i still very much treasure this relationship.

1 cor 13;4-7
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

these verses kept reveberating in my mind, inconspicuously evoking me to recollect my thoughts before assembling them to form one big picture-- a picture depicting friendship.

love and friendship goes hand in hand, both interdependent.

without love, this friendship wil be like a cup of spoilt milk; unblemished on the surface, but spoilt in the inside. this cup of milk if consumed over a peroid of time will cause one to feel discomfort, and before long, one will regurgitate the milk to ease his torment.

today, i threw up this cup of 'milk'. my threshold for tolerance had reached the maximum, resulting in my abrupt change in mood. well, i wont be surprise if the two of u did not notice that, for u ppl usually adopt a nonchalant approach to almost every other thing.

in a relationship, one got to give and take. but here, i think ive been giving in a tad too much. you ppl do know i place our friendship in top piority, allocating as much time as i can to spend with u ppl. im usually the one to make the phonecalls, checking if we are coming out or smth. hardly, hardly did u ppl take the initiative to phone me. blithe unconcern. blithe unconcern.

even after i moved, i tried to stick close, occasionally gg down to ur area for bball or some chilling sessions; its not like the cab fares are free. ive been compromising with my comfort zone, but do u ppl appreciate or even notice?
to add salt to the wound, i cant even play tennis with friends i treasure. i have no qualms abt playing it at your area, but tennis is probably too trival for u to fork out time and effort to find a suitable location. tell me if thats the case, i will accept it with due respect.

take today for example, i had a bbq to attend, and because of that, the snide remarks have to be hurled eh? dun tell me its just a joke; even jokes have limits. try telling ur mum that ur gf is pregnant, and later modify the statement by saying its merely a joke. a slap will be promptly issued for taking this joke too far.
the attitude pissed me off, not the comments.

the image of the ck boxers hovered over my head, causing me to unveil a saccharine smile. i love that boxers, for it is an accoutrement signalling love. however, love got to be exhibited on a regular basics! not by words, but rather, by practical means, actions that is.

if u find this post petty and redundant, do slip me some cyanide, kill me so that i'll nv ever voice out my earnest concerns.

if this relationship is genuine, reciprocate my love, and i'll gladly go the extra mile to keep this bond vibrant.
friends are lovers, literally. no one gets left behind.

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12:05 AM

Thursday, May 11, 2006

one down, two to go.

as the title suggests, first prelim is finally over.
physics, the bane of my existence, have finally taken a toll on me. for the physics paper, my script was left virtually untouched; blank and unanswered questions speaks of my meager knowledge of the subject. unless the sun rises from the west, there is no way i can pass that paper.

my inability to do the physics paper tantamount to an admission of unfavourable omen, one which forebodes unpropitious results for this prelim. i do not feel good abt this prelim, attributing these negative emotions to a lack of preparation and hardwork.
i studied, but not enough.

this june will mark the start of my assiduous pursuit in attaining the As for my next prelim.
i was just talking to marvyn a few days back, outlining our study plans for june. find a few classmates, get back to sch in the morning and study till evening. we will then end the day with a game of tennis.
to sidetrack a lil, i absolutely adore tennis. though im considered as an amateur, it aint gna stop me from enjoying the game. after the Os, i will definitely pick up tennis!

prelim 2 in july and prelim 3 in sept. its a long and torrid journey, but this journey is worth all the sacrifices.

each and everyone of us live on a modicum of faith, but there's hardly any occasions when we choose to place great faith in people around us.
maybe just a tiny weeny bit, such as entrusting ppl with household chores, or getting them to run simple errands like getting the groceries et cetera. this is faith too, but on a lower level, a secondary stratum.

what im going to share now consist of a person who believes in me. he did not trust me with just minor issues, but also trusted me with my future.

presenting to u.. DAD!

ive grown to enjoy dad's company over the years. when i was young and ignorant, i commited several mistakes which shattered his heart, inducing the start of many acrimonious disputes which estranged our relationship. all these have become a thing of the past.

now, we communicate on a regular basics, discussing everything under the sun; ranging from politics to school and work. it started to dawn upon me that dad trusts me very much u know. my mum is always complaining to dad like how im not studying hard enough and all, but dad always brush it off.

he told me, 'i take a different approach from mum, i trust that u will do well for ur exams.'

even when i come home late at night, he hardly grumbles. dad trusts that i will study despite the numerous outings. woah, i marvel upon the radius of this gargantuan faith, and cant help but verbalize my fervent appreciation,
i love u dad!!!! (:

for dad, for accomplishing my lofty dreams, and for a brighter future, i'll work!

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9:23 PM